. I HAVE ONLY LOVED SOMEONE ONCE IN MY WHOLE LIFE N HE DIED EVER SINCE THEN I HAVE FOUND IT REALLY HARD TO LOVE AGAIN. I AM ALWAYS AFARID THAT I MIGHT FALL IN LOVE N THEN THAT PERSON MIGHT JUST LEAVE ME,I KNOW THAT I VERY BEAUTIFUL N ITS A FACT THAT ALOT OF GUYS ARE AFTER ME CAUSE I WORK N BE AROUND PEOPLE ALL DAY BUT I JUST CANT FALL 4 THEM. THEN NOW WHEN I HAVE FOUND SOMEONE WHO I FINALLY FEEL CONNECTED TO IN SUCH A VERY SPECIAL WAY HE JUST CANT BELONG TO ME CAUSE HE IS SISTER HUSBAND N THEY ARE DIVORCED I LOVE THIS GUY SO MUCH N HE LOVE ME JUST AS MUCH NOW I DONT KNOW WHERE TO TURN OR WHAT TO DO.I GUESS NOT EVERYTHING WAS MEANT TO B