i have been married for 3 years now. whole marriage has been rockie. lots of issues with his ex and we just can't seem to find a middle ground. so bad that we even have blank divorce papers within our posession. he has been living in another state for months now due to work and i have been at home working every day and taking care of our kids. no word of him coming home either. recently i have come in contact with an ex from my WAY past whom i have never really got over. contact by email is all. i told him how i felt and he feels the same way and now i can't stop thinking of him. i feel warm and tingly inside thinking of him and many thoughts go through my head of what could happen, but i don't let them happen because i'm married. so because of this, i start to regret i'm married. i don't know what to do. hubby is not due to come home any time soon either. this other guy travels as well, is in a relationship but is home within 100 miles of me frequently.