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i will try to make this as short as possible... to start from the beginning i went down to the city where i use to live to visit my best friend.... at the time she was with her bf Steven and Steven had a friend named george... i had never met george... so it was my first time getting to know him... he had just been through a breakup and was ready to mingle around.... so i came out from the middle of no where and me and him got introduced... one thing led to another...we eventually had sex, i didn't fall for him soo much... and he fell in love with me. i went through soooo much shit... when my family found out about him and me... and well george...was attached to me for like 2 months after that... he asked me to be his gf at least 4 different times... and i refused his offer every single time due to the fact we lived 2 hours away from each other... and the distance would be to hard to tackle at least in my case... sooo one day i tell him he needs to move on with his life and surprisingly he already had... at first i was ecstatic, i was sooo relieved till i found out who he got with.... it is some chick i had problems with before cuz she thought i was trying to steal her bf and i didn't... her bf broke up with her due to the fact that she was a very jealous and controlling bitch. so-so back up to date... George is dating this girl... and at first i didn't seem to mind... but as time rolled on i came to realize how happy he made me... how empty im getting, day by day... im letting go of myself with drugs... and im completely miserable bcuz i lost him... the only thing that was keeping me going... and ive been like this now for 6 months... ive told him how i felt but i know he is only using me as a backup plan to get back at me for not even giving him a chance, the last time.... i haven't seen him in almost 7 months and i might go and see him this weekend.... what do i do??? i find letting go of the past to difficult... yet at the same time i would very much like to let him go.